'WHERE DREAMS MAY SPARK AND FLICKER'

Her eyes blaze with a celestial conflagration of jewel-bright hazel and untold depths, and the possibility that I may never behold them again is as utterly deflating as the thought that when I search their depths, I'll find that I have no place by her side.

The one I call Binary Star has unwittingly cast an unbreakable spell on me; my eternal devotion a result of her beauty, purity, faith, humor, integrity and loyalty. I find myself dreaming grandiose dreams of a life spent with her, dreams that will likely be shattered when someone more deserving comes along and sweeps her off her feet. And for all I could offer her: unconditional love, honesty, devotion, admiration; I know that if my dreams ever come true, I will be the biggest benefactor--the luckiest man alive.

I want what is best for Binary Star, and I truly and honestly believe that no one could ever love her as much or provide for her as well as I. And how invincible and content she could make me feel, no other girl could compare to her. I'd cherish a cutesy nickname that most guys would be embarassed to have; I'd wear it like a badge of honor. I want to belong to her, and I want her to belong to me.

But in all morbid honesty, she will probably never accept me as hers. Although we share a wonderful friendship, she has never felt for me what I do for her, and the chances of her having a change of heart are slim. Most frustrating of all, there's nothing I can do to convince her that I am the one for her. I'm drained, sapped, hopeless and helpless. There's nothing left to do but pray and dream.

Compounding my melancholy is the diminishing possibility of seeing her this summer. Initially I planned to visit her in her home state in the Midwest, but some logistical problems presented themselves. She may be coming to New York for a few brief days, but if so, will she have time to see me? Will she even want to?

Binary Star,
You're the brightest blue by far
And up against this starry sea
I thought that you were meant for me
Please tell me you were meant for me.